Two parts

One part healed; the other part wretched...

Thanks to Rona's infectious love for pigs...
It was so subtle I hardly noticed
I am fond of pigs again, Yey!
After she bought me that toothbrush holder from Bugis
To the Piglet Mouse Pad delivered through Gina
(which by the way I am not using for fear it'll be worn out, just like my othe 'pig' stuff)
Hmmm...this is something.
I can feel joy again whenever I collect pig-ables

I felt envious again that Rona had so much pig-stuff
Hahahahha! (envy is the key, pala)
From her sleeping buddy post which showed a cuuute pig stuff toy
To Medai's Racing Bib shot with Pig Wall Clock on the Background
(That I noticed right away...20/20 vision, eh)
I'm really back...

I was coercing Benz to buy pig stuff for me rin
Hahahha... Wawa naman Benz
Basta, ang saya!

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The part that is wretched

I don't know what and how it exactly happened...
We were on the phone, one moment
The next instance, I felt a thug in my heart
actually, a thug in 'unhealed' part

The devil sure knows where, when, and how to hit you
and he'll hit you hard
Kaya at the first sight of the wretched version of myself
I uttered my mantra of affirmation

I did cry, sure.

The flashback came so fast I wanted to watch Fast 5 to verify which is faster
(Hahahahah! Nice one... Dreaming I'll be inside the cinemas soon)
But before it can swallow me whole
Before it encroached my territory
I said, I proclaimed, I declared...Hey, that was from the past!
I know better now...

I am loved, being loved and will always be loved by my God.
Not that kid who's being shooed away anymore...
Breathe in the love of God...
God is good...

The pinch I felt in my heart lingered for a moment
My eyes were so chinky, hahahaha!
But I know deep within
I was able to control the flashback of the past from rushing in
Because I am loved
I am blessed with a new lease in life, a new lease in friendship
A new lease in all my relationships

Praise be to God!

Michelin

Rant! Rant! Rant!
grrr...
:D
Michelin!
Parang gulong lang sa kapal...

Thank you, Lord that by the time I am writing this blog, I have offered my 'pain' to you.
I was able to acknowledge to see beyond...
That I should just appreciate that I have crossed over...
And I pray she can and will be able to cross over soon...

So we will be more fit to shepherd your peeps.
Thank you.


*pain
stop the selfishness
it is not about me
it should never be
it is about helping
and reaching out
and repairing
and correcting
and most especially
about leading them closer to you

20:50
20 minutes
50 seconds

14May2011
:D

Mighty...

I hope...

I really do...

I already missed Burlesque...

I hope not to miss you on the cinemas...

A different one-in-a-million

You're one in a million
Oh... Now...
You're one in a million
Oh

Sometimes I can't hate you every day
Sometimes you can fall for everyone you see
Only one can really make me stay
A sign from the sky
Said to me

C:
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover all the stars above us
You're one in a million You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover all the stars above us

I've been looking for that special one
And I've been searching for someone to give my love
And when I thought that all the hope was gone
You smile, there you were and I was gone
I always will remember how I felt that day
A feeling indescribable to me
Yeah

I always knew there was an answer for my prayer
And you, you're the one for me

C -2X

I was cool and everything was possible
You tried to catch me but it wasn't possible
Nobody could hurt me it was my game
Until I met you baby and went insane
And when you didn't want me, I wanted you
Because the finer thing bout it was I like to go
I like it when its difficult I like it when it's hard
You know it's worth it if ya find your heart

C - 2X

You're one in a million
Oh...
You're one in a million

I'm no beauty queen...I'm just beautiful me!

This song's been ringing in my ears since two weeks ago...
I just keep on forgetting to download the lyrics...
Here it is...finally!


WHO SAYS
(Selena Gomez)

I wouldn't wanna be anybody else.
You made me insecure
Told me I wasn’t good enough
But who are you to judge
When you’re a diamond in the rough
I’m sure you got some things
You’d like to change about yourself
But when it comes to me
I wouldn’t want to be anybody else

Na na na Na na na

I’m no beauty queen
I’m just beautiful me

Na na na Na na na

You’ve got every right
To a beautiful life
C'mon

Chorus (My Dancing part...heheheh)
Who says
Who says you’re not perfect
Who says you’re not worth it
Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting
Trust me
That’s the price of beauty
Who says you’re not pretty
Who says you’re not beautiful
Who says


It’s such a funny thing
How nothing’s funny when it’s you
You tell ‘em what you mean
But they keep whiting out the truth
It’s like a work of art
That never gets to see the light
Keep you beneath the stars
Won’t let you touch the sky

Na na na Na na na

Bridge
Who says
Who says you’re not start potential
Who says you’re not presidential
Who says you can’t be in movies
Listen to me, listen to me
Who says you don’t pass the test
Who says you can’t be the best
Who said, who said
Won’t you tell me who said that
Yeah, oh

A need to exhale

04Apr


Ang tagal ko itinumba isa-isa ng mga pader na yun…

Sasandali lang isinimento mo ulit at itinayo…



Eto yung mga panahong gusto mo’ng magtanong…kaibigan ka nga ba?

Volleyball Champs

Don’t ask to win…pray for victory!

Choose!

03May

Noticing that I left my BBM Status on ‘household meeting’ I was thinking of something apt to describe the day.


I was uttering, Tuesday, Tuesday, Tuesday…

And then it hit me…

Yes, Tuesday….Choose day!

It’s Choose day…Choose to be happy; choose to be loving!

Nice!

Words

02May

Words that made their mark for this day


Activate


Deactivate


Mah friend!


Disclaimer

Laglagan

I love Gina!

She wrote the wall post the same time I was reviving her tandem with Jasper on our FB thread with our HS friends…

Laglagan na lang coordinated pa…
Hahahahah!
(pero nakalamang siya…private conversations yung sa amin,eh…tsk,tsk,tsk)

inq

what's wrong with inquirer.net?
it's already Tuesday and I still haven't read Fr. Orbos' article
hmmmm...

episodes

I miss...people and events...like these...

my original household

mountain climbing (sana with the same set of friends I usually climb mountains with)

going out of the country to do mission

parola meetings and monster,inc. peeps

and.....

moments like these.

Truth or Consequence Series

Jo was teasing me very early in the morning.
She mentioned something about truth or consequence...
and then the storytelling-a-lie in me got an idea...

Part I

Boy:   Laro tayo!
Girl:   Tara! Ano'ng game?
Boy:   Truth or Consequence
Girl:   Ha, Paano?
Boy:   Ako una.  Truth is Iloveyou...Consequence, I hope you love me too?


And it didn't stop there...
What if...what if...

Part II
Girl 1:   Ang cute naman ng kwento mo about truth or consequence...
Girl 2:   You wanna know the truth?  The story is twisted...pinagpalit ko yung characters dun sa kwento.  :-I

Omeng

after reminiscing a past escapade...
ang parting words...

a foretaste of what I'm capable of...
scared myself

cotton candy no more

had the rare opportunity to browse through my old blogs...
and stumbled upon the cotton candy post
ang layo na niya ngayong hinahanap ko ulit para i-link

am just so happy
that at this time and space
i am no cotton candy anymore...

tira-tira na...
yung matigas na sugar na mukhang tootsie roll
me mangilan-ngilang holes inside
pero sturdy and sweet
at pwedeng i-share...

:D

I'm sorry

We didn't get along from the start
I would demand this...
She would explain why it isn't possible

I would compare her to others
She would explain why
and bargain for a substitute, instead

I thought I got tired from continuously trying to capture her attention

We didn't jive, it's just that

And then after so many years of always asking
instead of seeking
So many years of listing what's lacking
instead of appreciating
Years littered with frustration
from lack of affirmation

At the right time
in God's perfect time
it just came
and then I understood

it's this thing called love
and love has varying languages
then I realized
love cannot be boxed
love cannot be demanded according to one person's standards
it can only be appreciated
it can be questioned so it can be better understood
but not condemned
it can only be sought
but you can never question its existence

when i confirmed everything
i appreciated better
and reciprocated more

Nanay, iloveyou
all those years i never understood
i failed to appreciate
all those years i thought differently
i failed to give
all those years i compared
i failed to recognize
all those years i demanded
i failed to be thankful

Nanay, iloveyou
Now, I know better
the difference in language matters
your was service
mine was time
yours was prayer
mine was touch
and for failing so it clearly
I'm sorry

Nanay, iloveyou
Let me make it up to you
Nanay, iloveyou
I know, appreciate, believe, am convicted, and confident
that you do love me
the language may be different
but the core is the same
the language may vary
but the message is universal

Nanay, iloveyou
Happy Mother's Day to you
And I pray for more years to be with you.

So I seek God in prayer
offering everything
and asking for nothing but love
in return

and then i prayed
so He'll purify my intentions
that it is not to gain advantage over someone
but to simply and really help
with genuine concern
so, when everything fell into place
thank You, Lord
for hearing my prayer

and may I continue to be humble in praying always
for my thoughts and actions to be purified

i hope
he hopes

i love
he loves

i really pray the cycle will find it's meaning and love-filled ending...
kasi naman...
naalala ko na naman si courage, the cowardly dog.
yun lang

interested or concerned

interested with the issue...
or
concerned about the people...

think, think, think...

water boy

water boy...
- kailangan dalhin kapag may laro ng volleyball
- 1000 points dahil sa bait

point system

Version 1 1 million dose of love

Horoscope ka ba?  Bolang kristal kaya? O Tarot card...
...
...
...
Kasi, I can see my future in you...
Beside you...
With you!


Version 2
1 million dose of angst

Horoscope ka ba?  Bolang kristal kaya? O Tarot card...
...
...
...
Kasi, bawal ka sa SFC...
Sabi ng CLP Talk 4 - Repentance and Faith.

Nyah!

Save her

I cannot always save her from being hurt
That would be unfair for me…for my ‘other’ friends
We should be past that stage…covering up

I have to fight my own battle
And that battle is with myself
To learn to accept things

I cannot protect her
I am not supposed to protect her
I should not protect her
If it means shielding her and fighting her battles for her
I should let her fight her own battles, too.

Being happy where we are now is the key



*even Harry Potter had to ride a broom and get past several ‘keys’ attacking him to get the one true key….

meaningful

25Apr2011 03:15PM

Rhonz : at least naging meaningful ang break time ko (salamat sa inyong 2) hahahaha

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Jen: At least may meaning ang Easter ko pala…

*hugs*

25Apr2011 03:05PM

It’s amazing what a hug can do to a person…
Okay…maybe for me, ‘a lot’ since my love tank is touch…
Anyways….

Happy and glad for that embrace
Never minding the disclaimer of no-bath-taken-yet…
The history of fish market-baqer mohebi-seafood cooking-kitchen cleaning-all together smell…. (gross, noh?)

Still…thank you.
Erased a lot of bad memories…
Replaced it definitely with new and sweet (smelling?) ones…


Thank You, Lord for the gift called tomorrow...where every opportunity to experience a better today lies...