Two parts

One part healed; the other part wretched...

Thanks to Rona's infectious love for pigs...
It was so subtle I hardly noticed
I am fond of pigs again, Yey!
After she bought me that toothbrush holder from Bugis
To the Piglet Mouse Pad delivered through Gina
(which by the way I am not using for fear it'll be worn out, just like my othe 'pig' stuff)
Hmmm...this is something.
I can feel joy again whenever I collect pig-ables

I felt envious again that Rona had so much pig-stuff
Hahahahha! (envy is the key, pala)
From her sleeping buddy post which showed a cuuute pig stuff toy
To Medai's Racing Bib shot with Pig Wall Clock on the Background
(That I noticed right away...20/20 vision, eh)
I'm really back...

I was coercing Benz to buy pig stuff for me rin
Hahahha... Wawa naman Benz
Basta, ang saya!

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The part that is wretched

I don't know what and how it exactly happened...
We were on the phone, one moment
The next instance, I felt a thug in my heart
actually, a thug in 'unhealed' part

The devil sure knows where, when, and how to hit you
and he'll hit you hard
Kaya at the first sight of the wretched version of myself
I uttered my mantra of affirmation

I did cry, sure.

The flashback came so fast I wanted to watch Fast 5 to verify which is faster
(Hahahahah! Nice one... Dreaming I'll be inside the cinemas soon)
But before it can swallow me whole
Before it encroached my territory
I said, I proclaimed, I declared...Hey, that was from the past!
I know better now...

I am loved, being loved and will always be loved by my God.
Not that kid who's being shooed away anymore...
Breathe in the love of God...
God is good...

The pinch I felt in my heart lingered for a moment
My eyes were so chinky, hahahaha!
But I know deep within
I was able to control the flashback of the past from rushing in
Because I am loved
I am blessed with a new lease in life, a new lease in friendship
A new lease in all my relationships

Praise be to God!