In search of a song

After accepting the ‘responsibility’ of giving the talk on Anger…
My next stop, look for a fitting song.
I was searching, browsing through my files…couldn’t find any.
I then asked the help of my musically-inclined friends being a musically-declined person myself.
I gave her my description of how the song should be.
I imagined the song with the lyrics crying out to God...
I want the song as being an affirmation ‘from’ God that we are loved, we are beautiful, we are valued…

A friend came back to me and suggested, ‘Through It All.’
It is a beautiful song, yes. So I asked their music ministry to practice it.
I even asked a dear friend to sing it for me on the day of the talk.
But as the talk is nearing...I couldn’t understand a different stirring from within.
The morning before my talk, I went to an early mass. Went back home and prayed. And then I opened the glory book and browsed through each page thoroughly; reviewing and imagining myself singing the lines.

And then I saw it!

Song Of My Soul

Here I am, an empty soul
Walking all alone through my life
Here I am, a lost soul
Looking for a place where I can hide
And find refuge, my long lost peace
and all else that will put my restless soul at ease.

So come my Lord, calm my heart

Pacify the sea that has been tearing me apart
Oh come my Lord, calm my soul
Take me in Your arms and make me whole my Lord

Here I am, still searching for the place
That every person calls home
Hear my prayer, hear my song
For only unto You do I belong

I've searched so hard all my life through
For love that I know I will only find in You

I knew it was this song that I wanted for my talk.
A perfect song for a person crying out to God.
Crying out in anger, in exhaustion, in surrender…
While reading the lyrics and singing the song in my head, I can hear God affirming me. He is saying that He will calm my heart.
He can pacify anything even the turbulent sea within me…

When the moment for the pray over came.
It was like I was serenading Him with a song of surrender.
Here I am, Lord, emptying myself before You.
I only ask of You to pacify the turbulence within.
I surrender. I want You to take control.
And I fully trust You.
Trust that to You I do belong…

Thank You, oh Lord for continuously affirming me of the many purpose why those things happened…
That I may love purely…even without recompense.
All for Your greater glory…